self-knowledge

Unveiling artistic dispositions

"I think you have to work your way through order to allow that order to shed light on what your own inner dispositions are. Sometimes you re-order your dispositions according to the color of that light. I think over the years there were a lot of things which, in earlier times I would be forced to reflect upon quite seriously, which now I say "I've been there, done that; I thought about this one, I know what I think about it, I know how it moves me." I don't need to sit down for a week and think about it again before I write music. Very frequently, I trust myself as an artist, by definition, as being de facto in a situation that, even if I don't discern what is happening at the time, that something meaningful will emerge from my activities. I guess it's just a sort of superior delegation: I delegate a lot more of my serious decision making to areas of my mind to which I don't really have direct access." — From a published interview with Brian Ferneyhough.